And that explains my life.
I never intended to use my blog as a journal, I don't know sharing personal details (other than ya know my tindering and everything else I do) just seemed kind of strange to me. That is until these past two weeks happened and now I majorly need to get it all out.
I'm going through my first audit since being put into my new position with a huge customer and 21 years worth of items to find. I was only two years old 21 years again, no pressure Arielle, no pressure.
Thanks to this audit I had to text my ex, he's a tool and die maker at the same company as me, and he was a last resort maybe be the saving grace. He wasn't and all it's done is sent me down a spiraling trail of emotions.
I should probably clarify I no longer want to be with my ex or miss our relationship, in the four months since we have separated my health problems have greatly improved, my anxiety is back under control, and I'm just all around back to myself and happy. But I was head over heels in love with the guy even through all the bad stuff, I thought he was the one, and we chatted for a bit today and not screaming and not being able to communicate but actually just talked. It reminded me of before things got bad between us, this is right around of year we first met, 4th of July was our first date, it's already been emotional due to all of that and this was just the cherry on top.
My other ex is one of my brother's bestfriends and recently moved back home. My brother and I are basically best friends so naturally I see Dakota all the time, no big deal we get along like we never dated, actually we help pick people out on one another's tinders. But that brings me to my point, WHAT THE HELL WAS I EVER THINKING DATING HIM...TWICE?! Seriously, he's a goddamn pig now.
Needless to say, life is crazy right now and all I want to do is sleep forever under a rock where no one can find me.
I'm going through my first audit since being put into my new position with a huge customer and 21 years worth of items to find. I was only two years old 21 years again, no pressure Arielle, no pressure.
Thanks to this audit I had to text my ex, he's a tool and die maker at the same company as me, and he was a last resort maybe be the saving grace. He wasn't and all it's done is sent me down a spiraling trail of emotions.
I should probably clarify I no longer want to be with my ex or miss our relationship, in the four months since we have separated my health problems have greatly improved, my anxiety is back under control, and I'm just all around back to myself and happy. But I was head over heels in love with the guy even through all the bad stuff, I thought he was the one, and we chatted for a bit today and not screaming and not being able to communicate but actually just talked. It reminded me of before things got bad between us, this is right around of year we first met, 4th of July was our first date, it's already been emotional due to all of that and this was just the cherry on top.
My other ex is one of my brother's bestfriends and recently moved back home. My brother and I are basically best friends so naturally I see Dakota all the time, no big deal we get along like we never dated, actually we help pick people out on one another's tinders. But that brings me to my point, WHAT THE HELL WAS I EVER THINKING DATING HIM...TWICE?! Seriously, he's a goddamn pig now.
Needless to say, life is crazy right now and all I want to do is sleep forever under a rock where no one can find me.